Thursday, 05 July 2012
you didnt love me that much if you were willing to leave me that easy. It's not right to be miserable for someone else's happiness For a moment, things were going the right way. Everything felt like it was in place, but every once in awhile, life throws in something to mess it up just a bit; not enough to destroy it, but also not enough for it to recover. Maybe that's what I'm starting to realize. The pain is temporary but the connections we make, they last forever and change our lives in ways we're not even aware of yet. I can tell that you don't know me anymore, it's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget. And being on this road is anything but sure, maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget. Time stands still when no one understands you and you don't quite understand yourself. Today didn't have to be this way, tomorrow is another day, another chance to make things right. It's either the bravest thing I have ever done or the most idiotic. And I suddenly realize how hard it is to tell the difference.
For what it's worth, I've always admired you. I always thought that we could make it through. Now look what time can do. It took our masterpiece we built and broke it in two. I always believed in you. I always loved you.
We would sit and wonder about the future but now I'm thinking that today sounds fine to me. Every person has two sides to them. One they let the world see, the other they keep to themselves but every so often, let someone special glance at. Everyone has a moment where they know when they wake up tomorrow, nothing will be the same. This is as good as it gets. And you know that. Cause you cannot convince me anymore. You cannot control me like before.
When we leave this year we won't be coming back, no more hanging out cause we're on a different track and if you got something that you need to say you better say it right now cause you don't have another day cause we're moving on and we can't slow down. These memories are playing like a film without sound.
Just stay awake. Stay awake for one more hour so you know that I will have no regrets for the things I didn't say to you.
It only took a minute for us to finally end it. I guess we'd seen it coming for some time. And it only took one hour to sit and talk it over but it took us all night long to say goodbye.
I'm sure there's memories I've missed out on. There's been a couple of loves I've left behind. I haven't found a heart that I can count on, but don't feel sorry for me.
Remember back when we were so close, remember when we had all of this. Although we aren't close anymore, I will always remember you.
he shines in a world full of ugliness. he matters when everything is meaningless.
don't get what goes on in his mind, but I'm tired of hearing the same stupid lines.
Now every heart has a blind side where it learns how to improvise. Well this place is a whorehouse tonight. Cheaper lovers make expensive wives.
Every demon, every ghost from your past and every memory you've held back follows you home.
But the worst damage doesn't always leave a mark you can see ... It doesn't show up like bruises. You can't show someone the way someone itimidates you every minute they're around, you can't repeat the words they say and make someone else understand how they hurt.
Now I'm flat on the floor with my head down low where the sky can't rain on me anymore. Don't knock on my door cause I won't come; I'm hiding from the storm till the damage is done.
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life. Define yourself.
The reason that teenage love doesn't last is because being a teenager is about change. You change; You grow apart. It hurts.
One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon, instead of enjoying the roses blooming outside our windows today.
But thoughts, they change and at times, they rearrange. I don't know who you are anymore. Love comes and goes and this I know, I'm not who you recall anymore.
I never forgot. No, not once. Not one minute and not for one second. Even after all these months.
We don't owe anyone a fucking explanation.
You can convince yourself that if you keep perfectly still, if you don't make any sudden moves, neither will anyone else.
Remember days when we laughed a lot? Those that weren't so good,
Yes indeed I'm alone again and here comes emptiness crashing in; It's either love or hate, I can't find an in between.
Tell me there's a logic out there leading me to better prepare for the day that something really special might come.
Could I act like you, and put a smile on my face? Not even for a second, would I lie to myself.
It's so much easier to let go of someone when it is clear he doesn't care about you. It may even be easier to let go of someone that dies, because there is nothing that can be done. But to let go of someone that is well and alive and loves you is an incredible task.